It’s 3 am and I should be sleeping…
Why do I always feel like there’s never enough time? A friend told me recently that we really only have time for one extra-curricular activity… For him it’s the gym. For me, it switches back and forth. I should be spending more time promoting my music, but for some reason other things always get in the way.
For example, my full-time job; volleyball on Thursdays; racquetball Wednesdays; gym every day; the lake some days; hanging out with friends most days; Church on Sunday; sleep every night; and who can forget the current book that I’m reading? I can’t–especially since my brother reminds me that he is waiting for me to finish it so he can start it.
Do you ever feel like you are bigger than the world you live in? Do you ever feel like you are meant for greater things?
I totally feel that way. And yet, I think that I am the biggest obstacle to achieving those greater things.
I recently told myself that I was going to stop being a child. Children flit around and do whatever they want. They have no care in the world. They have no responsibility. They have a ton of fun but rarely achieve any great things.
That’s how I feel I’ve been for the last few years. I’ve had a great time, but I haven’t affected the world as I wish I could.
I used to pray that God would give me the pain of others so they wouldn’t have to suffer. I have since realized that that is a selfish desire. It is through pain and suffering that we grow stronger. By taking other people’s pain, I’d be taking from them the opportunity to grow and become stronger.
While I have not always enjoyed the struggles I have in my life, I have always tried to be thankful for them. They have made me who I am and helped me to sculpt myself into the man I want to be, and the man God knows I can be.
Anyway, it’s late and I should be tired, but I’m not. My heart is full and my mind is alert. I feel like I can change the world–if only my voice could be heard.
If you read this, I hope you recognize how amazing you are. I may not know you personally, but I really feel like every person I have ever met has the potential to be brilliant and amazing. I hope you can see that in yourself.
Well, my thoughts continue but my fingers feel like they’ve written enough. If you get a chance, check out my friend Catherine Papworth. She’s got a great voice and writes beautiful music.
Wow. I just read through this post and I seem to have wandered much as I typed. Hope you enjoy it anyway.
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